after over a month of waiting to see him and come back from LA, i finally got to see him last night! picked him up from the airport, went to dinner with him, moms, and my sister then sleptover his dorm. Hes crazy, weird, stupid, a blonde, and amazing. I like him, alot, and hes pretty much amazing <3
My thoughts.
the only thing that gets me depressed now is thinking about the car accident.. So ima just blog it all out.
Drinking and driving is the stupidest thing, and i had to learn the hard way. I was lightweight drunk, and so was the driver. i was texting, and the next second later im upside down. Couldnt get out the car right away since my hair was stuck under something, but all i kept telling myself was keep calm. and the dude right next to me, ended up behind me with his arm stuck under the car.. i got my hair out and got out the car as fast as i could.. at that point i was just thanking God i was alive.. And an even stupider move, i wasnt wearing my seatbelt. Now i have to take pain medicine, wear a neck brace, and bruises everywhere.. I used to have thoughts of how i wish i wasnt here, and just being so depressed, but ever since that car accident happened, i dont ever think that again. God really did have me under his arms and gave me a second chance of living my beautiful life. And just thinking of the thought of being gone, kills me now. All my close ones telling me theyre so happy im alive and okay, makes me just wanna cry, especially when my mom says it.. I left my mom a wall post on facebook telling her i love her so much about 30 minutes before the accident and she said ” what if that was the last time you said that to me? ” it kills me.. But i honestly thank God im alive.. 2012 is definitely gna be a different year for me.
